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The Swing
04:08
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Summers immortalized on mixtapes
A record of all my past regrets and mistakes
What I wouldn’t give to be young again
Why did I ever want to escape back then?
I’ve gotten better at distracting myself
I’m fine on my own, I don’t need anyone’s help
The weight of the world, or the hole in my heart
Doesn’t matter, when there’s everything else that I’ve got
But I don’t want to die alone
Two parts orange and two parts green
Athena and Aphrodite crawling under my skin
Is there evil inside me? Is this feeling a sin?
Do I do what I have to or just give in?
I just don’t want to die alone
Am I too old for love? Would it be such a crime?
They’re telling me to take up the rock and join the climb
Forget about yours when I’ve got mine
But train rides and bedtimes are the worst times
‘Cause I don’t want to die alone
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Passing Fancies
02:58
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I know I was never a pole you were tethered to
You were always just floating away
I know I was never your bass or your tenor
Nothing to anchor, no reason to stay
I know I was never “Wherefore art…” whatever
Or a bird that was perched on the bust of your reason
It’s treason that loss doesn’t fade with the seasons
We get older but answers don’t get any clearer
I’m just someone who used to be your lover
Or was I a quasi-hunchback you pitied?
I don’t understand, everything seemed to be fine
If my love was boring, then your love was strychnine
Make no mistake, I think you’re a flake
Just a passing fancy
I made no mistake, and as of late
Just a passing fancy
To you
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Squirmin' Vermin
02:55
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There’s a speck on my wall and I thought I’d seen it moving
I thought it was a bug and I tried to kill it once
If I thought for just one second that my bloody heart was still beating
I would murder it ‘cause I’m so sick of love
Last night I had a dream I had rats in my apartment
They were so cute and fat they could be Parisian chefs
But I drowned them in the kitchen sink and thought it was an accident
I had cut off their heads and kept them as trophies
I would murder you ‘cause I’m so sick of love
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I can save you from your big dreams
If you’ll take me from my old friends
If the sky falls, what a letdown
Did I make noise if no one is ever around? What is sound?
Won’t you tell me am I real when nobody’s watching?
What are drugs for? There’s too little, too much all the time
Where’s the time gone? Have explosions ever changed minds?
What a letdown, I’ll just look away and keep running
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Unremarkable
03:03
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I wasn’t your first or your last or your best
I need to stop thinking and put this to rest
It wasn’t my fault and I’ll admit it wasn’t yours
It is what it is, it was never a choice
But intentions mean nothing when they’re only meant
We don’t choose our feelings, they cannot be helped
What counts is the follow-through, the proof of your synapses
It’s every single thing or it just all collapses
But bit by bit, I’m losing what you smell and taste like
Trace by trace, I’m slowly shedding your electrons
Spin by spin, the world turns and it will never stop for love
In seven years, I’ll be a brand new person, someone that you wouldn’t recognize
When was the last time I’d seen this familiar place?
Was it a lifetime ago? No, just a couple days
It’s so unremarkable, the colour of the sky
You’d never catch the subtlety, how it means everything to me
The longer time passes, the more that it seems
Like no time has passed and I just want you back
Like nothing has happened but that isn’t true
And I’m sure it’s not like this for you
But bit by bit, I’m losing what you smell and taste like
Drop by drop, there’s a river that’s forever changing
Spin by spin, the world turns and it will never stop for love
And it means nothing that our door is closed forever, the universe won’t shed a tear for us
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Won’t somebody help me
I don’t know where to begin
I don’t want to lose the fight that we can’t win
Love of my life, won’t you put down the knife
Let me patch up the hole in your heart
Just like the time we committed the crime
You had trusted me then, why not now?
You’re too young at twenty-eight
To feel nothing else but hate
I refuse to believe we are out of answers
I’m not done at thirty-three
Got my whole life ahead of me
I can’t see how I’m already out of chances
Love of my life, won’t you take a new wife
Won’t you try again with someone else if you won’t let me in
Put up a fight, don’t walk into the light
The night is much too young to just give in
You’re too young at twenty-eight
To leave everything to fate
I refuse to believe we are out of answers
I’m not done at thirty-three
Got my whole life ahead of me
I can’t see how I’m already out of chances
Love of my life, won’t you put down the knife
Let me patch up the hole in your heart
Just like the time we committed the crime
You had trusted me then, why not now?
You’re too young at twenty-eight
To pretend that you are straight
I refuse to believe we are out of answers
I’m not done at thirty-three
Got my whole life ahead of me
I can’t see how I’m already out of chances
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Maybe you left me for a reason
Maybe I was just oblivious
Maybe I was wrong to think that we were right for each other
Or that I was good to you
I wish you would tell me
I wish you would let me know
I don’t understand how you could give up
I know that the road ahead would be hard
But how could you never even look back
Like nothing we ever had was worth a second glance
I know you told me one too many times
That you would break my heart
But you were so sincere that I couldn’t see how
Maybe I was blind to how you always kept me at a distance
And I’m just finally seeing all that now
I know that you’re gone and you’re still running
Escape velocity at the speed of light
I know that I’ll never hear those words you said so often
Did you even feel it
I wish you would tell me
I wish you would let me know
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8. |
Car Ride
02:07
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Sleep clouds your eyes
And everything’s soft
The sun shines through trees
The car ride is long
The world is beautiful and it can’t hurt you
Smile and wave and keep away
And nothing hurts
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Accounting For Taste
03:29
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Love is a used car salesman
With a lot of cheapjack cars
You know what they say about life giving lemons
And time healing all broken hearts
We’ve always been greater than the sum of our parts
We are everything, everything ends
So I will keep my pride and my dignity
And you can keep all your shit friends
I never thought that I would see wood as lovely as a tree
I just kept stroking your ego ‘til it blew up all over me
You know what they say about letting things go, and stuff about getting things done
Well how would I know that I’d be the zero when I thought that you were the one
Oh so much time has passed
I’m still where you left me last
But I’m not worried, I’m not in a hurry
I know that the city will take you down for me
Not long ago you spoke of forever
And now you’ve left posthaste
I guess there’s just no accounting for weather
There’s just no accounting for taste
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Morningstar
02:24
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If you love someone, you gotta set them free
That’s what you had to do for me
And I guess you love me oh so much
‘Cause you never even keep in touch
Well I’m stronger than I’ve been before
I mean, you are too and so much more
And if anybody asks I guess
You’re winning if we’re keeping score
Well the sun goes where you go
And with it goes all I know
When you go where you go
I know you too well to think I was the best
We just took a little too long to end this
And though you’ll stain everything new in my life
I’m probably not even your favourite ex
I think about you less and less and
I’m sure someday I will be free
And though I love you more than life
I actually hope you’re over me
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Eggs In Purgatory
02:24
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Now every glorious sunrise will have your name splashed across the sky
And every starless night will know exactly the reason why
Even though I’ll never see your face again
I’ll carry you inside my heart until the end
Now every shade of blue, each shade of green I see
Will carry me to times when it was you and me
And even though I’ll never hold you in my arms again
I will hold you inside my heart until the end
Across the raging ocean, tossed and broken on the waves
I have nothing left to lose, of me, there’s nothing left to save
You have given me forever, now forever’s all I own
Though you’re gone forever and I am all alone
Now every bitter morning heralded by a bitter dawn
Every stinking second I am reminded that you are gone
In every cell, through nine rings of hell, I just can’t lose you ever again
I’ll carry you inside my heart until the end
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12. |
Gloom Revolt
04:16
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Is it cold when you’re so far away
Where frozen suns glow midnight on your mornings
Do your stars still see the light of day
When all you know is leaving, you never notice sadness
Pluto had a lover
She was stolen but she looked at you with kindness
She never asked questions though you tore her from her mother
She had suffered uncomplaining
Now she’ll never get you back
Should I pray to the universe to make you see
That every road you take will lead you back to me
When it’s so clear you never needed us
Did I hold you back or keep you down or dim your light
It was only ever you who saw me through each night
Are you happy now? Are you better off without my love?
Was there really nothing left to say
The silence only amplifies my longing
Was it easy to just walk away
The seasons change but nothing grows
Except the pain that only my heart knows
I wish I could apologize for all the times I did you wrong
So I can finally let you go and hate you for good
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You had crawled inside my skin with every silence you held tight
Like a thief who’d stolen nothing but took everything in flight
I am sorry if the moments didn’t measure to the time
I am sorry for the censure, I’m sorry for the crime
We were spinning out of orbit, we were flung into the sky
Will we still remember years from now, the seconds that went by
Does it matter that we tried so hard when all we have is try
Do you hold this all against me, do you wish that I would die
I know everything is in its place and just how it should be
I don’t blame you for the end or even for misleading me
And I wish that I could take back any pain that I had caused
But I don’t regret the sacrifice, the lives that we had lost
And we might had lost the war but we had fought the glorious fight
And although we had to go we raged against the dying light
And though we had raged I’m proud to say that we were never cruel
And we both were never martyrs, we both were never fools
And I hope you know I meant well, that I meant no disrespect
Look back on us kindly, make allowance for the things that weren’t perfect
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14. |
The Great Octopus Exodus
06:06
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Nobody knew just where they were headed
Or why they left the sea
Nobody knew and nobody noticed
They left so quietly
Nobody knew of their secret conventions
The plotting and planning to no one was mentioned
Someday when all of this washes ashore
We will all have forgotten, we won’t know much more
Mysterious as tides, or dark matter shattered
All over the universe, fragments are scattered
That all the king’s horses and all the king’s men
Could never unpuzzle this puzzling end
But some mysteries are inherently meaningless
Dark and alluring but emptied of truth
Muddling answers for muddling’s sake
It may look complicated but it’s still so prosaic
It isn’t indifference, just too large to hold
Fire falling into suns still end up burning cold
And the moon in its jealousy hardens its heart
Had I always known this from the start
Epiphanies, epiphanies everyday
I keep learning new things but have nothing to say
I’ve nothing to show though I’ve come a long way
Should I cut my losses or keep paying to play
Even as waves came crashing down on their spirits
They paused to admire the waves’ graceful resolve
Was it masochism that drove them to perish
Or was it the hateful thing we know as love
Infinite feelings in mutable vessels
How can there ever be justice in that
Is it any wonder we’re such broken creatures
Is it any surprise we’re so sad
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15. |
Reprise
02:09
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